UGH UGH UGH. I hear you. Finding the perfect job/education/calling thing is like finding the perfect romance, I feel. There are a REALLY REALLY LOT of people who just settle for the things that don't make them happy, but make them not miserable and are easy enough. I hate my job :( I just want to buy a house and grow a garden and have goats and bees and learn to throw pots bake things from scratch and have dinner parties and drink champagne in the middle of the day for no reason and ALWAYS ALWAYS fly coven over for visits. :(